Cry

Now and then I press play on my Nano and a song comes up that literally penetrates my soul, like today.
It hasn’t been a very good day for reasons I refuse to go into; my life, my problems.
I listened to this song from a band called
Casting Crowns
Ironically, I first heard the band while sitting in the car (station surfing) waiting for Pamela to come out of church a few Sundays ago.
The Man upstairs definitely
has a plan for me.
My soul is tired, as am I. But that’s okay.
Enjoy the lyrics.
I feel I could have written them myself.
And though I’m not a big God guy, these words spoke to me tonight.
I’ve included no hyperlinks to buy anything.
You’re on your own if you really want to hear the tune.
And it’s real nice stuff. It’s Toad the Wet Sprocket meets God, or something like that.
For anyone worried about the deeper implications of this post, I’m fine.
I have my one and only and the wonderful Man upstairs.
They both try like hell to keep me sane, a tough job.
I think I’m in very good hands. For now . . .

*EAST TO WEST

Here I am Lord and I’m drowning
In your sea of forgetfulness
The chains of yesterday surround me
I yearn for peace and rest
I don’t want to end up where you found me
And it echoes in my mind
Keeps me awake tonight

I know you’ve cast my sins as far
As the East is from the West
And I stand before you now
As though I’ve never sinned
but today
I feel like I’m just one mistake away
From you leaving me this way
Jesus can you show me

Just how far the East is from the West
Cause I can’t bear to see the man I’ve been
Come rising up in me again
In the arms of your mercy, I find rest
Cause you know just how far the East is from the West
From one scarred hand to the other

I start the day, the war begins
And less reminding of my sin
Time and time again
Your truth is drowned out by the storm I’m in
Today I feel like I’m just one mistake away
From you leaving me this way

Jesus can you show me
Just how far the East is from the West
Cause I can’t bear to see the man I’ve been
Come rising up in me again
In the arms of your mercy I find rest
Cause you know just how far the East is from the West
From one scarred hand to the other

I know you’ve washed me white
Turned my darkness into light
I need your peace to get me through
To get me through this night
I can’t live by what I feel
But by the truth your word reveals
I’m not holding on to you
But your holding on to me
Your holding on to me

Jesus, you know just how far
The East is from the West
I don’t have to see the man I’ve been
Come rising up in me again
In the arms of your mercy I find rest
Cause you know just how far the East is from the West
From one scarred hand to the other

~m